urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:massofchaos Silly words from a thoughtless girl. massofchaos 2006-05-30T19:19:36Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:massofchaos:1539 2006-05-30T19:19:36Z 2006-05-30T19:19:36Z Silence. <b>You're giving up on me.</b><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v499/NakedPigeon/65955089.jpg" /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:massofchaos:1294 2006-05-30T19:10:18Z 2006-05-30T19:10:18Z Iggy Pop. Guess what?<br />You suck.<br />I suck.<br />We all suck.<br />Funny world isn't, it?<br />Just a funny, suckish world.<br />With funny, suckish people.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><b>This bites.</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:massofchaos:1123 2006-03-18T18:24:10Z 2006-03-18T18:25:31Z "Like A Movie" -Midtown SO.<br />Id pretty much appreciate if you would just ignore my other 2 posts.<br />My ONLY 2 posts.<br />Because I just read them over.<br />And they make no sense.<br />Not like I was expecting them to anyway.<br />Plus.<br />Theyre dumb.<br />Which means Im dumb.<br />Not like I didnt know that already.<br />And theyre pretty sappy.<br />So I guess Im sappy.<br />But hey.<br />Im just a girl.<br />So whatd you (I) expect anyway? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:massofchaos:914 2006-01-24T01:55:37Z 2006-01-24T01:55:37Z Perfect Situation <i>Whats the deal with my <b>brain</b>? Why am I so obviously <b>insane</b>? In a perfect situation I let <b>love</b> down the drain. </i><br /><br />UGH. I HATE JEALOUSY! I HATE HOW NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY TO COMPOSE IT, IM THAT MUCH CLOSER TO BREAKING OUT! <br /><br />What I hate even more is how I cant hate Kate. And its not like I even have a reason to hate her. Or Alex. Even though for some odd reason its always Alex I end up giving the cold shoulder to. Today was horrible. Well okay, nevermind. I lied. It wasnt horrible. It was just...depressing. I was so...ugh...erm...fine...I was so jealous. Of Kate. I realize shes never really had the whole boyfriend experience or anything close to the sort but out of anyone else she could have liked, why did it have to be Alex?! And I feel so pathetic for even feeling jealous at all. <br /><br />I HATE BOYS. Maybe I should consider becoming a lesbian. Nah. Itd be even worse. <br /> <br /><i>Get your hands off the <b>boy</b>. Cant you see that <b>he</b> belongs to me? And I dont appreciate this <b>excess</b> company.</i> <br /><br /><b>I feel so selfish.</b> Am I really overreacting? Probably. And if it werent me in this predicament, but rather part of the audience, would I be laughing my ass off? Heck yes. So whats my problem?<br /><br />My problem?! Which one?! The fact that I swear the amount of time Alex is not in my head a day never exceeds an hour? Or the fact that I get jealous whenever Alex pays attention to Kate for more than 10 minutes? Or the whole concept of wanting to hate your best friend, while liking your other, while your best friend likes your other best friend? Or the fucking thought that Alex truely does like Kate a hell of a lot more than me but wont admit it?!<br /><br />But personally, I think my problem [at least one of them] is being a teenage girl. With a crush on some boy that her best friend just so happens to like too.<br /><br /><b>FZUCK.</b><br /><br />And I realize that I throw the phrase "I love you" around like crazy. And those words should prolly be worth much more than I make them out to be. And I honestly dont think that Im in love with Alex. I mean, I love him. Hes my best friend. Just like I love Kate. And everyone else. But...I dont know. It really bothers me when people claim theyve been in love though. I mean I really dont think you find your soulmate when youre 14 years old. And if you do. Then that sucks. But then again, maybe youre the lucky one(s).<br /><br /><i>Tell me theres <b>logic</b> out there. Leading me to better prepare for the day that <b>something really special</b> might come. Tell me theres some <b>hope</b> for me. I dont wanna be <b>lonely</b> for the rest of my days on the <b>earth</b>.</i>